Well, after that little depressive breakdown, we had a sudden change of heart at my school and now I'm making a game with my bestest friend Jelle van Doorne! :D
We even made a blog about the development of the game, sorry, but it's in dutch, but it's so awesome to work on this game! (link: http://envydvtg.blogspot.com/)
Just a few days ago, we made a demo and showed that to our teachers in a presentation of the concept, in the presentation we said that the demo was only an aesthetic demo of how we want to make the game feel 'Horror'-like, we didn't get any story yet because we didn't had the time... After the presentation and the demo they said "I'm missing a story here... You should definately work on that!"
At first I was like O.o, but then I was like -_- uhmmm... we already said we would work on the story, we already said we didn't have time, the demo we showed is 3 weeks worth of work, WE DIDN'T HAVE THE TIME! I mean god, get off our backs already...
Anyway, I'm having the greatest time working on this game and I'm still as awesome as always... Also, I did a test to see if I could join the Mensa Society (very high intelligence people) and it turns out I can! And that my IQ is estimated at about 140, so this blog is really about a smart person! XD
Currently, I'm also busy making a fluttershy plushie, I hope it turns out okay, because I don't have any skills whatsoever considering sowing and whatnot... XD
You can check my facebook if you want... (http://www.facebook.com/Everknight?ref=tn_tnmn)
Well, that's all for now,
Love and tolerance for all of you!
zaterdag 17 december 2011
woensdag 23 november 2011
Sigh...
Nobody even reads this... Or does somebody?
I'm a bit down, My eyebrows are in a frown...
Thankfully, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic is always there to brighten up my day!
As is the new Zelda: Skyward Sword! Holy crap that game is so awesome...
At first I was like: Oh man, this is going to be so awesome...
Then I was like: Oh dear god, it's even more amazing...
And then: ...this... I mean.... Like... wow... man...
But still a bit bummed about school, nothing seems to get things going, it's like we're all stuck in a drag or something and nobody knows a way out...
I'm a bit down, My eyebrows are in a frown...
Thankfully, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic is always there to brighten up my day!
As is the new Zelda: Skyward Sword! Holy crap that game is so awesome...
At first I was like: Oh man, this is going to be so awesome...
Then I was like: Oh dear god, it's even more amazing...
And then: ...this... I mean.... Like... wow... man...
But still a bit bummed about school, nothing seems to get things going, it's like we're all stuck in a drag or something and nobody knows a way out...
dinsdag 18 oktober 2011
So sorry... Project problems... And addictions to be taken care of...
No, don't worry nothing too troubling, just Minecraft (which is only the most super fun game EVER!)
and TV shows (How I met your mother, House, Big bang theory, Dexter, Game of Thrones),
ow and of course Anime (One Piece, Fairy Tail, Naruto)
Those were the addictions, which is about half my life in the present day...
The other half is school, mainly trying to discover what I can do in a big project like school projects.
And after one year, which is 3 group projects and 1 solo-project, I still didn't know quite well what I could do as an individual or a team-member, I can do all the things needed, the problem is somebody can do it better than me... I can draw a little, but not too great, I can model, not great, but good enough, I can animate good enough, but not great, I can program great, but not the best... And so on and so forth...
So what am I to do when we work on a big project and there is always someone better at what I can do?
Luckily, I found this video about being a producer:
http://penny-arcade.com/patv/episode/so-you-want-to-be-a-producer
And after I watched the video I immediately decided, okay, let's try that role in this project (2nd year, first project) And I sort of succeeded, the only few things that didn't go so great were:
- I had gotten tasks that needed to be done, which in turn had this effect:
- I couldn't/didn't monitor what everyone was doing, which in turn had this effect:
- In the first couple of weeks people didn't communicate their works and doing good enough, only in the last couple of weeks we finally got our heads together and thought of something promising.
The main lesson from this project was for me that everyone should keep their roles and make the decisions in that role. Communicate to someone what those decisions are, and let that someone decide to ask it to the group if this is good or bad or just to say that it's decided this way. This way, you won't get hours and hours of discussions, only comments on why it's good or why it's bad. And maybe not even that, maybe you get an OK from that someone and he says it's good, maybe a little change here and there, but it's good nonetheless.
But keep in mind that this is a role in itself, communicating with everyone about what they're doing, telling them this is good and this is bad. It could be done by a project leader, but he/she should be working on planning ahead and knowing what needs to be done by then and then, knowing if someone did his work or not by then and then and not if it's good enough in the perspective of the project.
In my mind, this is a producer...
TL;DR? You need a producer! And I want and can do that!
and TV shows (How I met your mother, House, Big bang theory, Dexter, Game of Thrones),
ow and of course Anime (One Piece, Fairy Tail, Naruto)
Those were the addictions, which is about half my life in the present day...
The other half is school, mainly trying to discover what I can do in a big project like school projects.
And after one year, which is 3 group projects and 1 solo-project, I still didn't know quite well what I could do as an individual or a team-member, I can do all the things needed, the problem is somebody can do it better than me... I can draw a little, but not too great, I can model, not great, but good enough, I can animate good enough, but not great, I can program great, but not the best... And so on and so forth...
So what am I to do when we work on a big project and there is always someone better at what I can do?
Luckily, I found this video about being a producer:
http://penny-arcade.com/patv/episode/so-you-want-to-be-a-producer
And after I watched the video I immediately decided, okay, let's try that role in this project (2nd year, first project) And I sort of succeeded, the only few things that didn't go so great were:
- I had gotten tasks that needed to be done, which in turn had this effect:
- I couldn't/didn't monitor what everyone was doing, which in turn had this effect:
- In the first couple of weeks people didn't communicate their works and doing good enough, only in the last couple of weeks we finally got our heads together and thought of something promising.
The main lesson from this project was for me that everyone should keep their roles and make the decisions in that role. Communicate to someone what those decisions are, and let that someone decide to ask it to the group if this is good or bad or just to say that it's decided this way. This way, you won't get hours and hours of discussions, only comments on why it's good or why it's bad. And maybe not even that, maybe you get an OK from that someone and he says it's good, maybe a little change here and there, but it's good nonetheless.
But keep in mind that this is a role in itself, communicating with everyone about what they're doing, telling them this is good and this is bad. It could be done by a project leader, but he/she should be working on planning ahead and knowing what needs to be done by then and then, knowing if someone did his work or not by then and then and not if it's good enough in the perspective of the project.
In my mind, this is a producer...
TL;DR? You need a producer! And I want and can do that!
maandag 12 september 2011
My life until now... (Part 4)
Sorry I didn't write much lately, was kinda busy with the new school year and all...
The last part of my life is my life at DVTG, and to be honest I just don't know what to write down here, the past year of my life just went by in a flash, at least that what it feels like...
We started out with 14 guys in our class, there was supposedly one girl...
Haha, funny story, the first day of our intro-camp there was a girl in our class named Roxanne, a bit of a show-off 'cool-kid' kinda girl. But of course also 14 guys, so we grew fond of her over the day, because she was the only female attention around. The day started of with a little quiz/quest around Utrecht, getting to know the city better and stuff like that, then we went on with a little hint to go somewhere around appeldoorn, we went there and played a little game of tag or something, then we went on with some bus, and we ended up in the middle of nowhere... They said start walking and we walked, for days it seemed (it only was like 3 frikkin hours, by god!) When all of a sudden a car arrives in the middle of the road... You must understand that throughout the day Roxanne has been calling with her dad and her ex-boyfriend, they really seemed not enjoyed at all that she went to do this study, so we were all very worried about her! In the car there was this guy, who was incidentally Roxanne's ex-boyfriend, she yelled stuff at him like: "Are you fucking crazy?! You don't just pick me up in the middle of nowhere right in front of my classmates, GET OUT OF HERE!" But eventually she stepped into the car, for no apparent reason, and the car just drives of into nowhere... All 14 of us just stood there 0.o wait, what?! In panic we just hurried to camp and said, yo Roxanne got kind of weirdly kidnapped or something, wth?! And they said don't worry we'll call the right people for this... So we relaxed had a fun relaxing day and stuff... The next day Roxanne came back, everyone was all like, are you okay?! and she replied yeah... Then that evening Roxanne decided she wouldn't do this study, because she has a lot to think about, and all mushy mushy cry cry like that... And with that she was gone... Everybody was a little sad the rest of the intro-days, because the one female in our class was gone...
Until the monday after that, that is. The 2nd-years (who organized the intro-camp) came by in our classroom and said: "We would like to thank you all for this great intro-camp and we would like to thank someone in special, COME IN!" (screaming into the hallway) and the person who stepped inside looked a bit like Roxanne and just like that she said: "Hi, my name is Doortje and I was Roxanne..." And then it hit all of us, DANG IT! SHE WAS AN ACTRESS?!?!
So anyway, the rest of the year was a fucking blast, met the best people to teach me ever, met some incredible genius creators and I met myself too and I grew a lot in that year...
Somewhere down the line I got myself a great place to live in, I learned to smoke pot (thank the heavens for that sometimes), I learned that I can code pretty darn good, I learned that I'm not the best leader in a project, I learned that My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic is THE best cartoon series ever, I learned that my old laptop was just some piece of shit, I learned that cooking as a student mostly involves pasta or rice, I learned that I still need to find the love of my life, I learned that I need some friends for a lifetime, I learned that Facebook is a great way to communicate with friends, I learned everything that Extra Credits taught me, I learned that I really like to dress-up in my morphsuit, I learned that having money to come by is REALLY FUCKING FANTASTIC, I learned that Taksi is really cheap...
In short I learned a lot from my life until now, but the best lessons were taught in the last year of it... It taught me how to BE ALIVE!!
Thanks to everyone out there that help me make the me I am today!
The last part of my life is my life at DVTG, and to be honest I just don't know what to write down here, the past year of my life just went by in a flash, at least that what it feels like...
We started out with 14 guys in our class, there was supposedly one girl...
Haha, funny story, the first day of our intro-camp there was a girl in our class named Roxanne, a bit of a show-off 'cool-kid' kinda girl. But of course also 14 guys, so we grew fond of her over the day, because she was the only female attention around. The day started of with a little quiz/quest around Utrecht, getting to know the city better and stuff like that, then we went on with a little hint to go somewhere around appeldoorn, we went there and played a little game of tag or something, then we went on with some bus, and we ended up in the middle of nowhere... They said start walking and we walked, for days it seemed (it only was like 3 frikkin hours, by god!) When all of a sudden a car arrives in the middle of the road... You must understand that throughout the day Roxanne has been calling with her dad and her ex-boyfriend, they really seemed not enjoyed at all that she went to do this study, so we were all very worried about her! In the car there was this guy, who was incidentally Roxanne's ex-boyfriend, she yelled stuff at him like: "Are you fucking crazy?! You don't just pick me up in the middle of nowhere right in front of my classmates, GET OUT OF HERE!" But eventually she stepped into the car, for no apparent reason, and the car just drives of into nowhere... All 14 of us just stood there 0.o wait, what?! In panic we just hurried to camp and said, yo Roxanne got kind of weirdly kidnapped or something, wth?! And they said don't worry we'll call the right people for this... So we relaxed had a fun relaxing day and stuff... The next day Roxanne came back, everyone was all like, are you okay?! and she replied yeah... Then that evening Roxanne decided she wouldn't do this study, because she has a lot to think about, and all mushy mushy cry cry like that... And with that she was gone... Everybody was a little sad the rest of the intro-days, because the one female in our class was gone...
Until the monday after that, that is. The 2nd-years (who organized the intro-camp) came by in our classroom and said: "We would like to thank you all for this great intro-camp and we would like to thank someone in special, COME IN!" (screaming into the hallway) and the person who stepped inside looked a bit like Roxanne and just like that she said: "Hi, my name is Doortje and I was Roxanne..." And then it hit all of us, DANG IT! SHE WAS AN ACTRESS?!?!
So anyway, the rest of the year was a fucking blast, met the best people to teach me ever, met some incredible genius creators and I met myself too and I grew a lot in that year...
Somewhere down the line I got myself a great place to live in, I learned to smoke pot (thank the heavens for that sometimes), I learned that I can code pretty darn good, I learned that I'm not the best leader in a project, I learned that My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic is THE best cartoon series ever, I learned that my old laptop was just some piece of shit, I learned that cooking as a student mostly involves pasta or rice, I learned that I still need to find the love of my life, I learned that I need some friends for a lifetime, I learned that Facebook is a great way to communicate with friends, I learned everything that Extra Credits taught me, I learned that I really like to dress-up in my morphsuit, I learned that having money to come by is REALLY FUCKING FANTASTIC, I learned that Taksi is really cheap...
In short I learned a lot from my life until now, but the best lessons were taught in the last year of it... It taught me how to BE ALIVE!!
Thanks to everyone out there that help me make the me I am today!
dinsdag 6 september 2011
My life until now... (Part 3)
The third big part of my life is middle school of course, where I grew from a wee little man to a big little man!
Throughout the first few years of middle school, I gradually came to the promise that I will show people that even though I have autism I can and will be a socially 'accepted' person. Because I found out that every known autist has problems on the social level and I wanted to show people that you don't have to...
This eventually lead to some problems in my studies, because I wasn't focused on learning the stuff from the books, but learning the stuff from the people around me. Instead of experiments on physics or science I did social experiments for myself, I was always looking for the boundary between socially acceptable and just plain awkward and weird.
I also found out that memorizing a list of words for some foreign language is just impossible for me, I just seriously can't make myself remembering what every frikkin' little 'fudge'-word means in some language I don't even understand (English is the exception, but that is because I REALLY watched A LOT of English cartoon network...)
In retrospect if I wouldn't have focused on getting social with people, I would have probably gotten straight A's or B's but then I would be like some self-centered unsocial super nerd or something and I knew straight away I didn't want that. And to my pride, I still get question marks on faces when I tell people I have autism!
Actually most of the time my life in middle school was pretty awesome, it wasn't like a normal teenager would experience it probably, because I still had my autistic breakdowns from time to time (crying about how life is too hard and that I just can't do it any more, a little bit like mini-depressions, which would then be solved by my mother by patiently saying: "What's the worst that could happen?" Me examining that question and answer: "Nothing much, I guess...") but now I at least had an explanation for my weird behavior from time to time...
I really loved middle school and it really helped me grow a lot as a person both physically and mentally, both socially and personally. I would like to thank everyone at my middle school for that!
Anyway, eventually my exams came and the only thing I did to study for them was scanning the insides of the book and saying: "Know that, Know that, Know that, ow wait don't know that, what was it again? Ow yeah... Okay, know that, know that, etc." And for every exam I got somewhere between 5.5 and 6.5 (5.5 is the border between failed and passed) so I passed my exams by just a heartbeat I guess, but I did it in one continuous effort, whilst being socially accepted by everyone in my class! Hooray for me and every autist out there in this crazy world of ours!
Ow I forgot, in the meanwhile I tried to find me a follow-up study and I knew I wanted to do something with games... After visiting some Game Design university thing in Breda, I found out I don't like the idea of learning only one thing specifically, so I said around: "I'm looking for a study that has something to do with games..." Until my Aunt Inger came by and said: "Hey, maybe the study I did (DVTG) is something for you!" So I went there with an Open Day and I absolutely LOVED it, the smell, the feel, the people... It was all totally like I belonged there. So After I passed my exams I applied for the study (after visiting A LOT while being in middle school) and I got accepted! YAY!
This will be continued in the next and final part... PART 4!
Throughout the first few years of middle school, I gradually came to the promise that I will show people that even though I have autism I can and will be a socially 'accepted' person. Because I found out that every known autist has problems on the social level and I wanted to show people that you don't have to...
This eventually lead to some problems in my studies, because I wasn't focused on learning the stuff from the books, but learning the stuff from the people around me. Instead of experiments on physics or science I did social experiments for myself, I was always looking for the boundary between socially acceptable and just plain awkward and weird.
I also found out that memorizing a list of words for some foreign language is just impossible for me, I just seriously can't make myself remembering what every frikkin' little 'fudge'-word means in some language I don't even understand (English is the exception, but that is because I REALLY watched A LOT of English cartoon network...)
In retrospect if I wouldn't have focused on getting social with people, I would have probably gotten straight A's or B's but then I would be like some self-centered unsocial super nerd or something and I knew straight away I didn't want that. And to my pride, I still get question marks on faces when I tell people I have autism!
Actually most of the time my life in middle school was pretty awesome, it wasn't like a normal teenager would experience it probably, because I still had my autistic breakdowns from time to time (crying about how life is too hard and that I just can't do it any more, a little bit like mini-depressions, which would then be solved by my mother by patiently saying: "What's the worst that could happen?" Me examining that question and answer: "Nothing much, I guess...") but now I at least had an explanation for my weird behavior from time to time...
I really loved middle school and it really helped me grow a lot as a person both physically and mentally, both socially and personally. I would like to thank everyone at my middle school for that!
Anyway, eventually my exams came and the only thing I did to study for them was scanning the insides of the book and saying: "Know that, Know that, Know that, ow wait don't know that, what was it again? Ow yeah... Okay, know that, know that, etc." And for every exam I got somewhere between 5.5 and 6.5 (5.5 is the border between failed and passed) so I passed my exams by just a heartbeat I guess, but I did it in one continuous effort, whilst being socially accepted by everyone in my class! Hooray for me and every autist out there in this crazy world of ours!
Ow I forgot, in the meanwhile I tried to find me a follow-up study and I knew I wanted to do something with games... After visiting some Game Design university thing in Breda, I found out I don't like the idea of learning only one thing specifically, so I said around: "I'm looking for a study that has something to do with games..." Until my Aunt Inger came by and said: "Hey, maybe the study I did (DVTG) is something for you!" So I went there with an Open Day and I absolutely LOVED it, the smell, the feel, the people... It was all totally like I belonged there. So After I passed my exams I applied for the study (after visiting A LOT while being in middle school) and I got accepted! YAY!
This will be continued in the next and final part... PART 4!
zaterdag 3 september 2011
My life until now... (Part 2)
4th grade and up until 8th grade is still pretty much a big blur, but a much clearer blur than before...
Of course I'm not gonna bore you all with every single details of my life in 4th grade until 8th grade. So what I will say here is that my life from 4th grade and up was really perfect and nothing really significant happened except for around the time of St. Nicholas our whole school was messed up because the 'trash' Jacks (de rommelpieten :P) came to our school. Of course any major change is the worst for an autist like me, so i panicked and cried and went to my mom crying.
For the rest of this part of my life was pretty casual and just really fun, nothing majorly happened. Up until 7th grade. Somewhere simultaneously with 7th grade i went through some tests and they found out that I have autism... My parents and I both had the same kind of reaction: "Oh, so that's why!" My parents always knew there was something different about me in comparison to the other kids and I always knew that I was a little different than my classmates and now we finally knew. It was actually great news to hear so we could improve and make my life a little easier with the knowledge.
The first big challenge then was homework, because my brain just can't cope with the idea of working at home. Home is Home and School is School. period. So to make this work my parents and I decided I would stay at school until at least most of my homework was done and that worked like a charm through the whole 7th grade!
Sadly somewhere in 7th grade my elementary school sweetheart moved away to somewhere else, at least to me she was my sweetheart but the only romantic thing we did was hang out in school, but still I cried my heart out when she left. I still think sometimes, what if...
Anyway, then came 8th grade and the next challenge was making a BIG report about something, you could choose whatever you want and just write a BIG report about it. Of course, I couldn't decide what, eventually I went with martial arts but I didn't know how to write a BIG report and I panicked but eventually my mother and teacher helped me out a lot, it still wasn't a very good report eventually (I asked questions about each martial arts and then answered them, so the report was a bunch of questions and answers...) but I was still proud of myself for doing it.
The biggest challenge yet was finding a school, I couldn't cope with the idea of leaving my school, so eventually I went to no open days at all, the only thing I visited to check what school I wanted was a presentation about one school and getting a tour around the school of another (together with my mom). Eventually I chose for the latter, because the first school was the school my brothers went too and they didn't have a great experience there...
Ow wait I forgot all about the CITO-test, it's a big test in elemtary school to see how far you have gotten in 8 years. I scored 496 out of 500 points so I was pretty amazed by myself. Because this qualified me for being a smart person. Yay, me!
This also meant I could go for a VWO study (which basically means A-level study in the US, I think) but my parents hesitated, mainly because of my autism, but I said to them and to myself: "Let's just give it a chance!"
So I went and got accepted at the Ashram College (that second school I visited) and had a great time there!
But for now I'm done writing so... To Be Continued! (in part 3)
Of course I'm not gonna bore you all with every single details of my life in 4th grade until 8th grade. So what I will say here is that my life from 4th grade and up was really perfect and nothing really significant happened except for around the time of St. Nicholas our whole school was messed up because the 'trash' Jacks (de rommelpieten :P) came to our school. Of course any major change is the worst for an autist like me, so i panicked and cried and went to my mom crying.
For the rest of this part of my life was pretty casual and just really fun, nothing majorly happened. Up until 7th grade. Somewhere simultaneously with 7th grade i went through some tests and they found out that I have autism... My parents and I both had the same kind of reaction: "Oh, so that's why!" My parents always knew there was something different about me in comparison to the other kids and I always knew that I was a little different than my classmates and now we finally knew. It was actually great news to hear so we could improve and make my life a little easier with the knowledge.
The first big challenge then was homework, because my brain just can't cope with the idea of working at home. Home is Home and School is School. period. So to make this work my parents and I decided I would stay at school until at least most of my homework was done and that worked like a charm through the whole 7th grade!
Sadly somewhere in 7th grade my elementary school sweetheart moved away to somewhere else, at least to me she was my sweetheart but the only romantic thing we did was hang out in school, but still I cried my heart out when she left. I still think sometimes, what if...
Anyway, then came 8th grade and the next challenge was making a BIG report about something, you could choose whatever you want and just write a BIG report about it. Of course, I couldn't decide what, eventually I went with martial arts but I didn't know how to write a BIG report and I panicked but eventually my mother and teacher helped me out a lot, it still wasn't a very good report eventually (I asked questions about each martial arts and then answered them, so the report was a bunch of questions and answers...) but I was still proud of myself for doing it.
The biggest challenge yet was finding a school, I couldn't cope with the idea of leaving my school, so eventually I went to no open days at all, the only thing I visited to check what school I wanted was a presentation about one school and getting a tour around the school of another (together with my mom). Eventually I chose for the latter, because the first school was the school my brothers went too and they didn't have a great experience there...
Ow wait I forgot all about the CITO-test, it's a big test in elemtary school to see how far you have gotten in 8 years. I scored 496 out of 500 points so I was pretty amazed by myself. Because this qualified me for being a smart person. Yay, me!
This also meant I could go for a VWO study (which basically means A-level study in the US, I think) but my parents hesitated, mainly because of my autism, but I said to them and to myself: "Let's just give it a chance!"
So I went and got accepted at the Ashram College (that second school I visited) and had a great time there!
But for now I'm done writing so... To Be Continued! (in part 3)
donderdag 1 september 2011
My life until now... (Part 1)
My name is Toby van den Brand, I am currently 19 years old, I was born on October 28th 1991 and I am currently living in a little appartment of my own in Utrecht, the Netherlands.
Sadly i don't remember anything from before i was about four or something and even after that most of it is all a big blur.
My Parents lived in Den Haag when i was born, 2 years later they moved to Gouda, I don't remember that but after that i remember some days and events...
Some major days and events in my youth (up until about 4th grade or something) were:
- The day we went on a school trip when i was 7 years old, i cried until my loungs were sore because i didn't want to go.
- The day my brother decided to jump off his bed and plant his teeth into the side of my head... Maybe this is why i can't remember parts of my life.
- My father was a dj back in those days XD
- Cartoon Network taught me to understand english and also speak it a little.
- I never got my junior swimming license because i was sick on the last day of school.
- We had to go to day care sometimes, but we had a Nintendo 64 there and that was sweet. Also because we had diddy kong racing and nobody could beat my brother at that, so eventually he just went solo with that game and everyone watched and cheered everytime he got 1st place... My brother the hero, some of the best days ever!
- We had a sweet playground right in the middle of our street, SWEET! but about 5 minutes walking away was an even bigger and WAY sweeter playground so that was fucking AWESOME!
- My grandparents visiting from America sometimes, they would bring fruity loops, which weren't available in Holland at the time, so super sweet!
- A friend of mine called David, wow, I just now realize i haven't spoken to him in a decade... wonder how he is doing... Not even sure his name was david now... Damn...
- My one autistic* outburst in class... I was working, the teacher was gone for some minutes, everybody was yapping away (3rd grade mind you) and I couldn't work that way. I remember thinking to myself: "Just ignore them and keep working. Just ignore and keep working." Eventually I yelled and I mean REALLY YELLED: "WOULD YOU ALL JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP, I AM TRYING TO WORK HERE!" bursting into tears and kept crying. Everybody was shocked of course, teacher came back saying: "Who was that?" "Toby..." the whole class replied... *more on my autism later
- The day our pet guinea-pig died, i cried and i cried. I was hoping my mother lied, but there in his cage he died, right by our side... And in the most awful way too, as it seemed later on, it was very hot that day and he had too few water to drink (we were away that day) so the way we found him was hanging by his teeth from his cage ceiling... :'(
- The day my brother decided to make our living-room floor real slippery with a lot of water and some soap, and we glided on our bellies all day long until our parents came home, furious of course. And the next day we all got pain on our bellies from the gliding... but still another one of the best days ever!
- Having new-year's sleepover with all the kids in our family and neighboorhood...
- Having a mini-christmas tree as a nightlight...
- Getting a Nintendo 64 from St. Nicholas! AWESOME!
- Celebrating St. Nicholas (5 december) with a LOT of presents and some family, celebrating christmas (25 and 26 december) with not so much presents but with a LOT of family...
There are probably some more events i can come up with but for now I'm empty...
In the summer of 1999 we moved to Alphen aan den Rijn and that's where some of the mist in my memory starts to clear and i have a better view of what is happening...
More on that Somewhere in the near Future!
Sadly i don't remember anything from before i was about four or something and even after that most of it is all a big blur.
My Parents lived in Den Haag when i was born, 2 years later they moved to Gouda, I don't remember that but after that i remember some days and events...
Some major days and events in my youth (up until about 4th grade or something) were:
- The day we went on a school trip when i was 7 years old, i cried until my loungs were sore because i didn't want to go.
- The day my brother decided to jump off his bed and plant his teeth into the side of my head... Maybe this is why i can't remember parts of my life.
- My father was a dj back in those days XD
- Cartoon Network taught me to understand english and also speak it a little.
- I never got my junior swimming license because i was sick on the last day of school.
- We had to go to day care sometimes, but we had a Nintendo 64 there and that was sweet. Also because we had diddy kong racing and nobody could beat my brother at that, so eventually he just went solo with that game and everyone watched and cheered everytime he got 1st place... My brother the hero, some of the best days ever!
- We had a sweet playground right in the middle of our street, SWEET! but about 5 minutes walking away was an even bigger and WAY sweeter playground so that was fucking AWESOME!
- My grandparents visiting from America sometimes, they would bring fruity loops, which weren't available in Holland at the time, so super sweet!
- A friend of mine called David, wow, I just now realize i haven't spoken to him in a decade... wonder how he is doing... Not even sure his name was david now... Damn...
- My one autistic* outburst in class... I was working, the teacher was gone for some minutes, everybody was yapping away (3rd grade mind you) and I couldn't work that way. I remember thinking to myself: "Just ignore them and keep working. Just ignore and keep working." Eventually I yelled and I mean REALLY YELLED: "WOULD YOU ALL JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP, I AM TRYING TO WORK HERE!" bursting into tears and kept crying. Everybody was shocked of course, teacher came back saying: "Who was that?" "Toby..." the whole class replied... *more on my autism later
- The day our pet guinea-pig died, i cried and i cried. I was hoping my mother lied, but there in his cage he died, right by our side... And in the most awful way too, as it seemed later on, it was very hot that day and he had too few water to drink (we were away that day) so the way we found him was hanging by his teeth from his cage ceiling... :'(
- The day my brother decided to make our living-room floor real slippery with a lot of water and some soap, and we glided on our bellies all day long until our parents came home, furious of course. And the next day we all got pain on our bellies from the gliding... but still another one of the best days ever!
- Having new-year's sleepover with all the kids in our family and neighboorhood...
- Having a mini-christmas tree as a nightlight...
- Getting a Nintendo 64 from St. Nicholas! AWESOME!
- Celebrating St. Nicholas (5 december) with a LOT of presents and some family, celebrating christmas (25 and 26 december) with not so much presents but with a LOT of family...
There are probably some more events i can come up with but for now I'm empty...
In the summer of 1999 we moved to Alphen aan den Rijn and that's where some of the mist in my memory starts to clear and i have a better view of what is happening...
More on that Somewhere in the near Future!
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